Mi casa su casa

My mantra of “let it be” has been put intensely to work during the past few weeks. I’m so used to being a fighter and shaking the tree for exactly for what I wanT from it, but I‘ve happened upon a situation where the best possible course of action is to simply allow the leaves to fall as they will and lay where they fall. Part of me is scared to death of not trying harder, but the other half of me knows that for once I hold no answers. I am a potential solution and not necessarily the right one. I hold no cards, just a promise I am ready. Dealing with this is tough. So many beautiful things have happened in my life lately and the idea of closing my eyes and letting everyone else in the world decide is equally freeing as it is terrifying. I know in the end it all works out. I know how strong I am. But damn if it wouldn’t just be the greatest thing to happen to me if it all went my way. But the point here is more than just my wishes. It’s about understanding the fact that I may not be what is wished for. It’s about learning how to do right by someone I care so much about and surviving what could be a difficult situation and becoming better for it. I am who I say I am and I care as much as I say I do. For both of our sakes I will not tamper with the situation. I will not impose my will. I’ll just be, and I’ll just let it be. And in the end we both win. I know there’s a light waiting for us, a torch we will both hold together, however it may be, come what may.